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This was the story of my life for over 6 months! Haha.

I’m happy to say that I am going through some new beginnings in my life.

On Monday I am starting a new job at a web hosting company as a System Administrator. I am super excited. Although Starbucks was a lot of fun, I really am not sad to be leaving. In the end, it was getting bad. Very short labor, increased pressure to bring in sales and increased drama among my employees. I will really miss my friends Josh and Andrea though – I love them dearly – and I know that a lot of the time “out of sight, out of mind” is realistic. I will make every effort to keep in touch and hang out regularly though.

Another new beginning is getting on board of a startup clothing line called Nicole Edwards. It is marketed specifically for African American plus sized women. I am getting on board as the marketing and logistics manager as well as a web designer and photographer. I feel that my web design and photography are going to need some work and practice – especially when it comes to graphic art – but that I have a lot of good ideas that I want to put into practice.

The third interesting beginning is questioning my sexuality yet again. I went out with a guy named Ryan. We went to the movies and we had a lot of fun – but in the end he kissed me. I had never kissed someone before – which is sad – but its a true fact of life. I do not know if I am not attracted to Ryan, if I am not attracted to men in general or if my first time just freaked me out a little bit – but I couldn’t shake the feeling of disgust for at least thirty minutes. I don’t think it was the guy necessarily because I thought he was super cute sitting next to him in the movie theater and I was getting butterflies in my stomach. But in the end I’ve decided that it would be unfair to him to continue seeing him until I figure out what I really do want.